Mother Behind My Eyelids

2026年5月17日 2026年6月5日

TANUFOX

Created by M.Sawaguchi / Lyrics by M.Sawaguchi

Here is the song description in English, crafted to capture the emotional depth of both Japanese literature and the blues.

Song Description

Track Title : 『Mabuta no Haha (Mother Behind My Eyelids)』

【Description】 This track is a deeply emotional blues number inspired by Mabuta no Haha (The Mother in My Mind), a timeless masterpiece of Japanese literature and drama by Shin Hasegawa. It masterfully fuses the profound pathos of traditional Japanese storytelling with the raw, melancholic soul of the blues.

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Length: 3 minutes, 5 seconds

The song follows a man who has spent twenty long, lonely years fueled by the idealized image of his "saintly" mother. When he finally tracks her down, however, reality deals a crushing blow. To protect her current "new life" and status, she treats him like an unwanted stranger, offering cold cash instead of the maternal love he so desperately craves.

While this tragic reunion has historically been told through traditional Japanese folk and enka genres, this track reimagines the heartbreak through a slow, gritty blues rhythm that mirrors modern emotional isolation. Devastated but resilient, the protagonist makes a poignant realization: the mother he truly needs does not exist in this cold reality, but lives on eternally—gentle and pure—whenever he closes his eyes.

Featuring a weeping guitar that echoes the protagonist’s silent tears and a raw, soulful vocal performance, this song is a powerful crossover where the deep "jo" (emotion) of Japanese literature meets the solitary spirit of the blues.

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LYRICS:
(Verse 1)
Close my eyes, and there she stands—my mother.
A puzzle made of jagged pieces, tryin’ to find each other.
They told me, "Stay alive, and you'll find her one day."
Just a hollow promise whispered in the pouring rain.
Since I was a kid, I drew a line in the dirt,
Grew up cold, sharpening my blade to numb the hurt.
"Go straight," they say, like it’s an easy street to find,
But my path ends where the sun forgot to shine.
(Hook)
Close my eyes—and in the dark, I see her glow,
The saintly mother that I used to know.
Open my eyes—and reality cuts like a knife,
Staring at the woman who erased me from her life.
"I don't know you," she said, with ice in her tone,
Turning twenty years of longing into dust and bone.
(Verse 2)
Stepped through the doors, expecting a miracle,
But the reunion was anything but lyrical.
She’s got a "new life" now, a house, and a name,
And I’m just a ghost, a reminder of her shame.
Blood for silver? Is that the price of our bond?
Tossin' coins at the son she’s no longer fond of.
"Mama…" The word died right there in my throat,
Turned my back on the warmth, grabbed my raggedy coat.
(Bridge)
(Spoken word style, slow tempo)
Hey, Ma.
Were you protecting your happiness, or just running from the guilt of throwing me away?
…Whatever.
The mother behind my eyelids is the only one I need anyway.
(Hook)
Close my eyes—and in the dark, I see her glow,
The saintly mother that I used to know.
Open my eyes—to the wind and the midnight haze,
Searching for a ghost in a cold, urban maze.
Maybe I wasn't looking for you at all,
Just the piece of my soul I dropped before I could crawl.
(Outro)
(Blues harmonica fades in)
"Should've stayed away?" Nah, this is how it ends.
My mother lives only where the dream begins.
Goodbye, City.
Tomorrow’s just another sky I don't belong to.